Walking in a McFly Wonderland!

hmm, i guess i never really thought about this as much until now. How SHIT this world really is. Yes you heard me SHIT.

 So i was browsing facebook the other day and came across an hilarious group to do with girls getting periods and how guys should be kicked in the balls every month... i wanted too wind my boyfriend up earlier so i went on the group too get the link too send to him and i saw a coment about disgusting photos... i was like huh? so i went on the photos and saw what had to be some of the most terrible things i had ever seen, some sick cunt (a word i don't use often) decided this was hilarious that he would upload photos, some were fake, some are real, mainly of babies dead and abused with blood all over them, and one of step by step photos, of someone, maybe even him, burning a kitten alive.

For those who do not know me i have extremly strong opinions on this, I can't wait too have my own kids someday, and i practically own a zoo at the moment (1 dog, 1 cat, 1 fish, 1 guinea pig, 2 dwarf hamsters... and i have had many other pets before, from a couple more cats, too a rabbit, all living healthy lives until it was their time...i have never lived my life without an animal in the house!)

every single photo brought me too tears and made me sick too the stomach and made me realise the type of world we are living in.

It is facebook.. yes i know.. some of them were fake.. yes.. but some were real, i am pretty damn sure the kitten one was real!
It shows what can really happen in every day life to poor defensless creatures!

I have heard of many cases recently of abuse and cruelty, especially to children, Baby P is the worst one i have heard recently. That poor little angel now dead because of his mother and step-father beating him to death, social workers not doing anything about it, and a doctor refusing to see him because he was cranky... well.. he had a broken back caused by being chucked around like a rag doll.. wtf do you expect! 
And his mother and step-dad get a few years in prison and are coming out with new identities.. same thing for the woman from Plymouth who took photos of babies naked and shared them over Facebook to some pedophiles. she is getting out with a new identity apparently as well..

So, Paul has gone now. I am missing him already, and i got an assesment on Tuesday... that is the bad times.

Ok, well then again, maybe being apart from Paul wil do us some good, we have been with eachother nearly 24/7 for like.. 4 months.. (i won't explain it was meant too be for the shome noummer, but he lose his id, and everything went tits up!) so maybe it will do us good to get some time apart, some 'me time' as it were. I will be seeing him again in the New Year anyway.. when i turn 18 :D

And i have my first second year college assesment on Tuesday! In all fairness i am sort of up to date just got a lot of book work too do which i shall tomorow, and i should be fine, although i don't see a distinction there, but i said that about my last year assesment and i got double distinction...

I never really explained the new members of my family either, in the summer after i got back from the Isle of Man, i decided i want to get my own pet, i had a Guinea Pig, but i never looked after her... so for a few years now she has been my mums, so i wanted my own, i think i am old enough now too look after one. So i went out and brought 2 new dwarf hamsters :) 
I called them Pinky and Perky. I have had them since the end of July and Perky is starting too get tame but Pinky i think will always be a lil' nervous, i have not managed too hold him properly yet. They are super cute. But i have had too separate them already due too fighting, despite the fact i was told they like too live together. but i have read some people have separated them anyway. But i have been able too afford to keep them so far and looked after them so it is all good ^_^

Christmas next month as well... the time of giving and spending loads and loads of money!! I get £30 a week EMA. and by my calculations i can only just survive on that, college, and keeping my hamsters... although people should not expect a lot this year.. i am spending atleast £10 on everyone first, before i think about getting anything else.. I am going too spend a lil' more on Paul since what i got him last year was SHIT! but i have after christmas as well, we decided that we are going too wait until he comes here when we can open eachothers presents, but i promised him i will send him one thing so he has something too open on christmas from me. I know  a few things i am going too get him anyway ^_^

I have so far got 4 presents, one for my step-brother, 2 for my half-sister and 1 for my sister, i got something ordered for my mum as well, all of these cost £10 or less... so it all worked out so far haha! well except my sisters it cost £20, but it is from me and Paul and he is giving me £10 for it, so it technically cost me £10 :P

As for what i want.. i gavw my mum a whole list, although there are only 3 main things i want from her
-Graphics Tablet
-The Sims 3
-Money!

Although my mother said she is not giving me money because apparently i am getting money from everyone else and i gave her an OPTIONAL part.. which was Final Fantasy games and Rascal Flatts CD's..
I also put down things she always gets me anyway...
- Clothes - i asked for hoodies and jeans since i am very low on those at the moment
- Books i have asked for the last 2 Twighlight ones
-DVD's i have asked for Twighlight and Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince..

So that is all i asked for apart from that i ant money..

There is also i want a PSP, and the Special Edition Final Fantasy Dissidia game set!... but Paul pretty much told me he is geting me that! as a birthday and christmas present.  i don't really want him too spend that much money... and i was going too get it myself anyway, since i know i can get it for under £100, if i get a second hand PSP and the dissidia set. But i will have too see..

hmm.. i love christmas :)

If anyone watches the x-factor.. you might know what i mean when i say IT IS A FUCKING JOKE!!
I shall give my opinion on each of the contestants remaining...
Danyl - Oh my god, this guy is AMAZING, and last night, he sang 'I don't want to miss a thing' by Aerosmith since it was rock week, and i was dissapapointed, everyone stop giving him greif! You are killing his confidence! he is an amazing singer, and don't say he is a cocky for doing a passion, his confidence has been knocked because of the papers saying he is the most hated contestant in the competition, well Danyl i think you are amazing! and you are one of the few i want too win, you did not deserve too be in the bottom 2 that time and i am glad you went through again, get your confidence back :)
Lucie - Yet another amazing singer. Not yet been in the bottom which is brilliant and that is all i can say she is amazing and again another i want too win.
Jamie - Once again AMAZING he is a proper rockstar him, and he is just awesome, and the final one of the lot that i want too win.
Olly - meh he is okay i guess... that is all i can say :)
Stacey - She can sing... but please please please someone shut her up.. i can not understand a word she says when she talks xD
Joe - Once again a very good singer, i was not too keen on him at first, but he has gotten a lot better as the show went on :)
Lloyd - This is where i start too rant.. LLOYD CAN NOT SING!! He is 16, or 17, not too sure, he is young.. his voice can still mature yes... but at the moment he is off key, out of tune, and the track plays over him... so why is he still in it?.... oh yeah... because 'he is so fit!!' It's a singing competition and that is all i am going too say..
John and Edward - Okay my BIGGEST RANT.. I mean WHAT THE FUCK IS GOING ON!!! Ok, putting them through the first few times was funny.. haha hilarious!! Because THEY CAN NOT SING AT ALL!! seriously youtube them, they are shit! everyone thinks so, so why are they still there, because they are funny! ok it was fun too start with, but when decent acts are in the bottom because of them (Danyl) it is a joke and just stupid.. John and Edward don't deserve too be there. If they were on Britains got Talent i might change my mind.. because i admit they are fucking hilarious! but they can not sing and it is a singing competition. So it is not funny anymore.. although, i admit, when they go through, there is a lil' piece inside me deep deep down thinking YES! as i know i get the pleasure of laughing at them next week :)

That's my opinion on X-factor 2009 anyway :P

Anyway as you have probably guessed i love Final Fantasy so here.. it is Yuna! who i drew... HATE the left side of her face and i HATE hair! 

Add my DeviantArt! 

http://mcfly-lover-forever.deviantart.com/

enjoy :)


 

It is defanatly a recommendation :D

A new favourite at the moment

Just thought i would tel you all :D
 

Went from being the best day of my life... to a day i know i won't be very happy on...

Life can't be any more complicated as it is.. Long distance sucks sometims... well... most of the time

So i was at work the other day, doing nothing because we were quiet, so i just started too think about what i have actually acheived to be proud of in my life. 
What did i come up with?
Nothing ...
I couldn't think of one thing to be proud of, no acheivements, i haven't done things i have wanted too do. 
If i asked someone i knew they may be able to come up with something
But i came out with nout
Although, i have achieved one thing that i have been trying too do for ages, and i have only just realised it.

So i set myself goals :D

Along the educational side i obviously have
Get good grades in school 
Go to college, and do well in college
Go to university

Obviously it's too late to improve that, so what i get on the 21st August, is what i get. I know i could have done better, but i just got to hope for the best and hope that what i do get is something to be proud of, as long as it gets me too college i am happy. But i have always planned to take my education all the way, so i will go university if i can, it would be a great experience and one thing i know my family would be proud of me for doing, alongside my friends and myself.

Lifestyle
Well, my lifestyle doesn't include the popular goals such as lose weight, stop smoking ... well i don't smoke anyway.
But those are part of them, i never plan too smoke, i never want too smoke, i never plan too drink LOADS maybe drink on special occasions but not all the time, i don't want too drink loads all the time.
Also, i this is a goal i will more than likely not acheive ... doing more excersize for atleast that half an our a day
I have the wii fit, so i can do it, but i always either can't be bothered or forget. So i can't promise myself that one. But the ones about NEVER smoke and NEVER drink too much are a go

Also, Jobs ... i have currently got a summer job working at a snack bar at a camp site. I like it, and i am getting the hang of it now, So goals are too find a decent winter job so i can carry on earning my money while going college, obviously i am more tha  likely going too have too move out when i go university, so i will have too find another job while going too uni. and then when i finish uni i plan too get a decent well paid job. I have the full education, i'm better off  putting it too use right? that's what school, college and university is for. So basically i want to get good jobs throughout my life and then i could help my family as well when in need :D

Just random goals i want too acheive
Yeah just a few small goals i have always wanted too acheive
Disneyland, I want too go to Disneyland at some point in my life, as sad as i may sound i have always wanted too go ever since i was a kid, and it is a life goal too go there, not the one in Paris but the one in Florida. and i still plan too eventually

Harry Potter land, I have no idea wether this plan is still on the go, but they were planning too make a Harry Potter Theme Park a bit like Disneyland, being a huge Harry Potter fan i HAVE too go. Again it is in Florida, so if they are still planning too build it, it is still in my goals

McFly, I want too meet them, not the measly 2 minute thing i had but a proper signing you can talk too them at, and get pictures etc. Well atleast meet them as many times as possible, and see them in concerts as well

The last one (so far) i have apparently already acheived!
Paul ... I love him too pieces, he's means everything too me, and i want him too have the best in life. But, he always put himself down, and took what people say about him seriously ... all the bad stuff that is, i know wyh he did it but i am not going too talk about it, but, i love him too much for him too stay that way, i want him too have the best in his life and feel confident and happy about himself. It was difficult over the internet but it was my main goal for when he was coming here, and apparently he said that i have acheived that already, he has hardly put himself down and he is not taking the bad stuff seriously. I am so happy for him now and there's not one thing i would change about him, i love him soo much :D

So something i have done too be proud of

And since he said that it also made me realise, i have helped many of my friends in the past, boy problems, girl problems, family problems, friendship problems, self problems, sex sometimes ... although that subject is one i am not a huge help with, but i get people telling me their problems a lot when i ask if their ok, and apparently most of them once i give advice they appreciate it and say that i help them out a lot. So i guess helping my friends out with problems, all the times i done that, that's something too be proud of :D

But i love all my friends too bits, even if some can be anoying at times, i still love them :D
and i am grateful too have so many people at my side when i need help with anything, most of them actually online friends, i meet the most amazing people online and wish they lived in Cornwall so i can have them near me too have a laugh with. I am not exactly popular, and don't have many friends, so the friends i do have i love :D

So my goals
Get good grades in school 
Go to college, and do well in college
Go to university
Never Smoke
Never drink alot too often
Try and do more excersize
Get a decent job throughout my life
Go to Disneyland
Go to Harry Potter land
Meet Mcfly as many times possible
See McFly as many times possible
Help Pauls confidence
Carry on helping my friends with problems

Live life too the full

As they say, life is only short, you have to do what you want too do with your futures, which i plan too do, i want a happy life, so i have too forget about the mistakes i have done in the past, think about the present and not worry about the future, what happens, happens, and i am going too acheive whatever i can too make my life the best i can possibly have.

You know what i mean, those stuck up people who expect the best and fastest service you can give them >:(

I was at work, and it was the start of my second week
Last week the the campsite was apparently not even fully booked
So it was not very busy
But this week the camp is fully booked so we get busy from time to time
I only started last week so i am not used to the busyness.
Anyway, It was quiet so Denise was on the phone, and then suddenly, I don't know where they all came from but it suddenly got really busy, Denise was the phone so i was left to take orders and cook myself, I was trying too take one order but realised i left the chips on for too long, so i was panicking and under pressure, and got the order confused.
Denise then got off the phone and came to help, and said to the customer 'Don't worry it's her first week' and the customer said 'and her last' treating me like crap, it was my first week so i was not used too any of this ... well my second, but my first busy week. So i got pissed off about it
Denise rang dad and he told me too ignore them they get a lot of people like that down there.
I started working again and was ok
I was still a little annoyed when on the way home, but what made things worse was bloody computers, when i got home i went too go on MSN, MSN wasn't working, so i tried Ebuddy, 20 times, 'Server Busy' i was extremly annoyed and fedd up with computers, but i went on iloveIM and it worked. 

So was quite pissed off yesterday, calm now though.
And hungry ... 

We had a brave little kid come though, yesterday he fell on a barbeque at the campsite and was rushed too hospital
He fell on the barbeque and then someone DRAGGED him off instead of picking him up
He must have been about 2
He was so brave but had bad markings on his face and neck and will probably be scared
He got a free ice cream though :P hehe

Anyways i am hungry ...

Well it has been a while hasn't it xD

I kind of stopped doing this as i 
1. couldn't be bothered
2. had nothing interesting happening

Although there is 3 things
1. School prom
2. Paul coming over
3. The McFly signing a week back from now :D

Anyway, i'll start with the school prom, which was a fun night, but scary getting ready, i'll explain ...
Friday 18th May
I had finished school the day before although i still had to go in the next day for my music exam, which was hard, but i am apparently predicted atleast a C

Anyway, when i finally got home from school, my cousin was coming down in an hour too get me ready, she was doing my hair and make-up. Infact the whole fashion part of it was practically all down to her, she had put highlights in my hair a week before (which i still have :D ), She was doing my hair and make-up for the night, and my dress was hers but altered too my size, and how i wanted it, and it was perfect :D

Anyway, my cousin came and we started with my hair.

I had not had much too eat and drink that day, as i had my exam i was revising for, then an huor when i got home i was getting ready, so i had not had much, it was very warm, and she had eventually done my hair and then i started too feel fainty, so i told my mum to get me a drink i wasn't well. My nan noticed and told us too open the windows, suddenly my sight went i couldn't see anytihng, and my eyes were open o_O. so it was quite scary, my nan tried to lead me outside although it did not work as i couldn't move side to side, because i did not know what i was doing because i couldn't see, so she sat me on the sofa, i was very scared. 

We got my mum too ring 999 to get an ambulance here. and all i could say was that i didn't want too miss the prom. someone got me some orange juice and a banana, and soon after eatting and drinking my sight was returning, it was a mixture of excitment, no food, and warmth reacting together. Not good, so i have now collapsed twice, fainted and lost my sight because of no food and a hot room, what next? 

Anyway, the doctor told me not to go out that night, but i didn't listen i was not missing the prom. so my cousin carried on and did my make-up. 

So when i was ready i went out too the car and went too the hotel for the prom. 

Everyone was there and taking photos of their children.

Once it was time too go in we all went in and sat down at a table for food.
First course - Bread and Patae (which was actually very nice)
Second course - Chicken soup
Third course - (if i remember right) i think was beef, gravy, veggies and potato :S i think
Fourth course - i think was marangue and either raspberry or strawberry sauce

Sorry if i got that wrong i can't remember exactly it was about 2 months ago xD

And there was a choice of drinks ofcourse we weren't aloud alcohol.
So i had through the night, 2 J2o's, and a coke, which actually i think had a bit of alcohol in it :P

Anyway, we then had music and dancing through out the night until mid-night, was a lot of fun. 
And i actually danced :O

I was not even that tired when i got home so i came home and spoke too Paul on the internet
Yes there was an after party, i didn't go, why?
1. Did not know where it was
2. It was at a house of someone i hardly knew
3. none of my mates were going, whats the point?

So it was a brilliant night :D

here's a picture too show you


So that is what i looked like :D

Anyways on to topic 2

Paul coming over

It was great, ok we were a bit shy at first but it all worked out xD
He came around the corner and it took about 2 hours for us too start talking properly but we are fine now :D

He truly is one of the most amazing people i have ever met and i am so glad i have him :D

He was meant too stay for 2 weeks, but ended up staying for about 6 because of the McFly signing xD

Most days we stay at home, but we went town, Eden project, And other places as well, we did a pointless walk too a shop about 3 miles away, the shop here was closed and we were bored so we walked too another shop 3 miles away which was fun

and he is coming again in October too see Elliot Minor with me

it should be fun :D

He has gone home now, and is going too see Lee Evans next week, i was going too go but i have a summer job now and they can't get anyone too cover for me, i would have too go to the Isle of Man for a week, and i can't do it, so he has too find someone else

Lucky him :(

I really wanted too go Lee Evans is my all time favourite comedian, but i have too miss him :( 
well i hope Paul has a good time anyway.

Anyway, the last day and topic 3 the McFly signing

This is going too be a long talk

Thursday 17th July,
We were ready by about 10pm and my dad was picking us up.
We got to HMV about mid night and was on our own xD
We thought there would be loads of people because in Glasgow there were over 40 people by 10pm apparently
But oh well, we were at the front :D

My dad hung around all night to keep an eye on us
And this girl called Stacey arrived not long after us
We were talking and then we had 2 drunks come and talk to us
I swear one of them asked Stacey about 5 times where she comes from xD

Anyway
We were there all night
and by 8am there were loads
the shop opened to go and get a copy of 'One For The Radio' which is an awesome track! and a wristband too meet McFly!

We then had to hang around until 5pm
Which we did and we were at the front :D

And then we went into meet them and it was amazing
:D
Dougie said hey too me and i did not know what the hell too say!
But i got signed copies of the single :D

and then We had to go to a concert 'Pirate FMs Big Top Weekend' 
McFly were headlining there 
so it was great fun
They only played for half an hour but oh well
And there was a hoodie there i really wanted but couldn't afford :(

So it was the best day of my life

It could have been better: i could have met McFly longer (it was literally a 1 minute thing), they could have performed longer and i could have brought more money for the hoodie.

But oh well it was still the best!

And their new album was out in 'the mail on sunday' the other day

WHICH IS AWESOME!

their best album yet i think

And i have a summer job working with dad ... cooking

I am getting about £100 a week though sooo

Anyway, i am missing Paul loads, he has not been online because his internet aint working and his computer has viruses so :(

Can't wait for him too come back!

anyways i will leave you with a couple of pictures

 <<< Me and Paul :D

 << Danny Jones from McFly

So me and Paul and A signing picture
These were taken on the digital camera though
There are better ones on me phone
and when i get the pictures off my phone on the computer i will post them :D
But these are the best so far i am afriad :(

Anyway, i have to go my sister is oging on the computer

Yep ... i have had my first art exam ... so thats art over and sone with ... apparently people were saying it was very good ... so cool ...

And June 7th is an exciting day ... Paul is coming down :D so ... YAY!!

Hehe 

Uh ... yeah

Bye!

oh heres a pic of my art exam :P

Only 3 more weeks until i am on study leave and the prom. Got me dress, accesories, shoes ... practically everything :D
Going to be good

Michael and Lizzie ... broken up ... for good ... knew it wouldn't last

Remember my paramedic coursework, i got 26/32 ... highest marks in the class ... a B i think :D
French coursework ... 43 marks ... B ... 2 MARKS OFF AN A!! gutted!

exams are coming up

uh ... not much has happened to be honest

talk to Paul most days ... most fun ever :D
i love him loads
especially after today ... he's really helped me through hard times. 

anyways ... oh i had my college interview ... i got offered a place ... woooo hooo! if i got the grades i start 3rd September :D
woo!

anyway ... all in all ...  i can't wait too leave school, i knew Lizzie and Michael wouldn't last, proud of my grades, can't wait for college and me and Paul are still doing fine :)